I know that dating escorts is not exactly a crime, but I feel so guilty every time I do so. Sex addiction has for a very long time been a big problem for me. It started when I was really young and got hold of my parents sex magazines. It was clear that my parents were really into sex and I have to admit that they were not always discreet about it neither. As a matter of fact, I appreciate now that my parents were swingers, and sex was a major part of their lives. That never changed and it became a major part of mine as well when I had sex with one of their friends when I was rather young.
The other day I was telling one of the girls at London escorts, that my parents let porn movies lay about the place like they were Disney videos. My mom was clearly into a bit of bondage and I think they used to practice that together with their friends at the Swingers club. I have never really got turned on by bondage, but I did try it with one of the girls at London escorts. It just was not for me and in many ways I am glad about that.
I do enjoy a bit of role play, and I think that comes from my mom’s swinging days after dad left. When I came home one day, my mom clearly had a party going. All of the people at the party had different costumes on and it was clear that it was a swinger’s party. I was 17 years old at the time, so I suppose it did not do me any harm. The harm had already been done as I said to Lucy at London escorts the other day. Sex was just everywhere in my childhood.
Don’t get me wrong, I was never abused. Some of the girls at London escorts thought I had been abused but I never was. My mom knew better and I think that she had a lot of respect for other people as well. Some of my mom’s friends were clearly not into her scene, and I was grateful when they came around. Life felt a bit more normal for me as a young boy. I did not have to worry about walking into a room to find people in various state of undress.
Is there any wonder I have become addicted to sex? Some people are hooked on other things, but the only thing that can give me a feel good factor is sex. Amy, another one of the girls from London escorts, was shocked when she noticed how many pornos that I owned. Some of them are classical and I even have an old VHS player that I watch some of them. It is an addiction and I have tried various methods to stop it, but it has never worked. I did work with a lovely therapist for a while, and that helped a lot. But, she moved abroad and I am not so sure that I would like to approach another. They may think that I am strange.…